being content


one of the greatest struggles for me as a homeowner is being content with where things are. we purchased our house knowing that it was going to take a lot of time, money, and work to get it to the place that we saw in our heads. and after a few months of said time, money, and work we found out that i was pregnant. this altered the amount of work that i was able to do and the labor fell onto stijn's shoulders. when we have been focused on a particular project he would come home from working all day only to work more in the house. we've made serious progress but there is still a lot left to do and with a new baby just around the corner we have had to prioritize projects and push others to the side. and this is where i get in the way.

i have always loved to create environments. whether it was in a coffee shop, or setting up pop-up sales for my vintage clothing, or just entertaining. i love to use a space to create a feeling. i find myself spending endless amounts of time on pinterest looking for inspiration and then planning out our renovations and what will go where in our home. the problem that arises is that it seems that there is always something else i want or feel that we need for our home. we have made a choice to have me stay at home with our children and being a one income family means that we do not have an endless budget for everything that pinterest inspires. (serious addict over here)and so i am learning to be content. i am learning that it is ok that our house isn't finished and that it doesn't have to be perfect before we have folks over. i am learning that my endless aspiring has a profound impact on the weight that my husband carries. i am learning how important it is for me and for him that i acknowledge just how much i love this home we are creating. i am learning to be satisfied.

when our guests arrived last weekend and we were giving the tour i found myself focusing on what we hadn't yet done. as though i needed to apologize for it not being perfect. and then jesse gave me the best compliment. he said, "it feels like home. it's comfortable and a place where i can relax and just be."

life and our home isn't the perfectly curated pinterest board or the carefully styled blog post. life and home is messy, it's lived in, there are toys, and dust bunnies, and cracks in walls, and uneven floors, and wallpaper hanging halfway from the wall (torn only to where i could reach without a ladder), and dog hair, lots of dog hair, and toys, toys taking over...but i love my life and so i'm learning. learning to be content.

cabinet redo


months ago i found this cabinet in a local vintage shop. originally i was planning on keeping it as is but as time wore on and the more i looked at it the more i wanted to update it somehow. the color, while great, was a little retro for me and the knobs on the doors were damaging the edges of the doors every time you opened one. so after sanding, oiling, and sealing the wood i drilled holes where the knobs were and painted the doors black and white. i am so happy with how it turned out and it looks beautiful in our dining room underneath my most prized possession (my first charley harper).

a nook for eleanor

a nook for eleanor
a new tent

sunday was a stay in your pj's all day kind of day. we started by sharing pumpkin pie pancakes for breakfast while we watched cbs sunday morning (also known as my church). we then spent the rest of the day enjoying the little nook that we made for eleanor. we drew on her new chalkboard wall and read books in the a-frame tent stijn and i made for her yesterday. it's funny how this small nook made it really seem like a home here. i sat watching her scribble on the wall and thought about all that that wall would see; soon there will be a second name written on it, our children will practice writing their abc's on it... i can't wait to see how their imaginations develop as they draw, write, and express themselves in this space.

and please excuse eleanor's hideous pajamas; they were the only ones i could find over 12 months with footies.

those are some fine looking refinished floors we have on our first floor; super excited about how they turned out!

the bathroom

did i mention we bought a house? have i told you yet that it's over 100 years old and hasn't been updated in about half of that time? have i even begun to tell you how many big and little projects there are for us to tackle?

here is an abbreviated list of what needs to get done in the interior of the house. (in no particular order):
1. take wallpaper down from every single wall in house
2. paint all walls and trim
3. remove carpet from all rooms
4. repair hardwood floors where necessary
5. tear out kitchen (including demo of wall)
6. install kitchen
7. update bathrooms
8. remove and replace all overhead lighting

after prioritizing our home projects we concluded that the bathroom and the kitchen were the two most important rooms to tackle before moving in as neither one would be fun to live through. and so began our first big redo: the full bathroom.

currently the full bath is a scary shade of blue painted over wainscoting, with a beautiful claw foot tub (also painted blue), and linoleum flooring. we're not quite sure what is behind that wainscoting and in an effort to keep projects manageable we have decided to leave it and give it a fresh coat of paint for now. as crazy as it seems we are painting it black. i love a black and white bathroom and think it will work beautifully in this space. we are also tackling our first tile project and by we i mean stijn. i am in charge of creating the vision for the space, painting, and dealing with the tub. i can't wait to see it all come together. and for those of you doubting our paint color choice just you wait! as stijn says, "it's classy."

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