our valentines dinner was thwarted by sickness. raincheck in place but truthfully it's been a rough couple of weeks here in my body. a bacterial infection 2 weeks ago, battling a cold for the last week, and now another infection. awake at 4 this morning feeling miserable and frustrated and in the delirium that comes from lack of sleep i was thinking about how amazing the biology of pregnancy is yet feeling that my body is no longer my own. i mean to some extent i can dictate the kind of pregnancy i want to have. i can choose what i put in my body, i can choose the level of activity that is comfortable for me, i can choose whether to find out the gender, i can choose the kind of birth i want (for the most part) but then there's the part where nature and biology take over. and for someone who likes to be in control surrendering to that is proving to be difficult. but you heard it here, i am today at 15 weeks, choosing to surrender and allowing my body to work, trusting that it knows what to do. now could the infections please just take a break for a little bit?
still not much of a bump here. there are definite changes in my shape but the belly looks as if i might of just eaten a big meal!